Worries

I pretty much spend my hole life worrying about my family, friends and people I have nothing to do with. Worrying is my way of coping with things, but its not a good thing because it makes me more up set and down!
Love Phoebe xxx

Money

Well today I went shopping to get some new cloths as I have lost weigh and I am really proud of my self! I still have about a stone to lose but I'm getting their. Today I have had a really fat day so tomorrow I really need to get my dite back on track!
Love Phoebe xxxz

Tonight

Sitting watching tonight with my mother, sitting in tears watching this about Tia Sharp and how her step grandad killed her! Honest to god people that hurt children should rot in jail. People that say child killers, rapist and people like the men that killed the soldier on Tuseday should be put to death, all I have to say to this is that's the easy way out, not having to face up to what they did, and leaving every one else to pick up the pieces!

welcome back

It has been months since I talked hear, how have you all been? Lately I have been having a bit of a hard time, life just seams to be getting me down all the time! I have been falling out with friends and family, I just feel so alone all the time, I know what your going to say, I'm just a teenager, it's just your hormones but it's got to be something more than that honestly it is! It's not jus hormones that are making me feel this shit!

Have a good time, smile and be happy
Love Phoebe xx

Cant do this!

I feel really strange and low today, and i don't know why! I have always had a crazy loud family, well what do you expect when there is 5 children, 3 cats , 1 dog and 2 adults.But after what happened to my brother and my mam, things got worse, its been 3 years sine that happen and now i cant cope any more. I wake up to get screamed at, hit and kicked, then to go to school and to get shouted at for something i did the day before. Then i go home to get shouted at and hit then i go to get and it all starts again!
People say to me it will get better, or always look on the bright side. They have been saying this of 3 year and i cant do this any more. I cant pertend everything is alright any more! People looking in on my life would say, well just walk away, don't listen to him. People don't understand that he will follow us, pounding on the door till it caves in! i am scared of him when he goes off on one of his rages, really scared. I tell people and they don't believe me or think I'm making things out to be worse than they actual are. But I'm not, i really cant do it any more. My mam trys to control my brother but she is scared of him to, he will hit her and call her worse that shit!
I CANT DO THIS!!

Phoebe xx

Hey..... do you remeber me?

Have not been on hear in such a long time!! I keep telling my self, i will write a post, but i never have time or I'm always down. I'm having a really hard time at the minuet with my family, my little brother is getting more and more violent and saying worse things. i feel no one is taking me seriously when i say i cant take it any more, i think there just waiting till i crumble under the perisher! People tell me to smile and every thing will be all right but it never is, i don't think things will ever get better, the sooner I'm 16 the better, the sooner i can move out for good! The sooner i can live my own life with out getting called names  every day or getting hit or kicked every day!
Love
Phoebe xxx