Christmas!

Thank you mammy love my kindle!

Mammy and Frankie on Christmas Day

The neackless mammy got me! Wanted one all year!

Well its Boxing day Christmas has been i cant belive how quick this year has went by. Thank you mam and dad for every thing i got, especialy my kindle fire and my cross neackless! It would have been a lovely day if i was well, but i was sick all day Christmas day, did not even eat Christmas dinner. I normaly eat every thing. Even though i was ill i had an amazing day spent with family, no one was fighting at my nanas all the kids had a go on the wii, it was such a good day. Because every one is still ill today, we are having boxing day on friday, hopefuly we will all be better!





Love Phoebe xx

I'm sorry just been doing lots of things and i have really missed posting! Nothing really to report except my life is shit! Everything is going wrong! School are getting involved where they are not wanted, and social workers may be coming back into my life. For any one that did not know when my brother was attracted and my mam started drinking loads social works came in to our lives for the first time and where with us from about Jan 2011 till may 201. My mam stop drinking and they said we where fine healthy and safe! (witch we all ways were! My mam is a good mother). But now they believe my little brother Finlay is putting us at risk because of the way he acts! I had bruises up my arm last week because he gaped me! Sick of it!
I am still doing gang show and it hard work but it worth it! I get to be a cat and a train, Frankie is not 10 months! Shes really big and is standing by her self and walks along the anything she can.
Days till gang show: 44 (getting scared!! )
Days till Christmas: 72!
Love phoebe xx

Explores hand

Went to explores tonight but cold not do much because of my hand -.- Loads of homework to do!

Days till gang show:67

Days till Christmas:103

Phoebe xx

OMG

OMG im so sorry, just need time away!
Normal posts as of tomorrow
Days till gang show starts: 68!!
Days till Christmas: 103 days
 Phoebe xxxx

Late Ill Shopping x

Late i know, but today i have been ill! I really hate being ill. Any way today i want shopping with my mam and got her a cute cup from me and frankie, that says i love mammy. And then today i have sat for 4 hours doing home work and i have more to do tomorrow! :(

Days till Christmas: 108

Phoebexx

Nothing

Did nothing today just went to school and explores. It was my first night but it was fun. 

Days till Christmas:109

Phoebe xx

Holly Josh and the rabbit

Well today has been really strange! I came home form St Johns tonight, to find out i left my maths homework at the church. So Holly said she would come and drop it off for me as she was dropping Josh off. But the they fell in love with my dog and kitten. The lady from round the street came up to me and said has your rabbit gone missing and i said yes. So me Holly and Josh went looking for it after about 20 minuets we found him under a car, he was bleeding from his leg and we lay on the floor, me, Holly, Josh, Finlay, and the people that owned the car for about half an hour till we got him. Me and Holly could not stop laughing!

Days till Christmas: 110

Phoebe xx

So much for new start! :(

So much for new year new start!! 

We in base and a phone call home with in 5 minuets of being in school! And was sent home to dye my hair! Dyed it 3 times in the space of an hour and a half. But on the plus side i was only in one and a half lessons! But i did have to take out my nose stud!
:( 
Since school started to today im going to do a new count down and its going to be days till Christmas! 

SO Days till Christmas:111! 

Phoebe xxx

Dance!

Right well today, i had young leadres and  dance! Im so taird form dance! But im sitting hear so so so scared to go to school tomorrow, im really upset. What is the point of going to a place where every one hates you!!

Days till school tomorrow!! :(

Phoebe xx

Laura

Right well today i went to beamish, it was really fun! We got loads of sweets and got to pet a horse! Laura, Laurens friend is staying tonight then tomorrow we are going to get ready for school! -.-

Days till school:2!

Phoebe xxx

Gang show! Frances

Right well today was the first day of the gang show, its really fun! But then me and Lauren had a fight and she really hurt my arm! But to day my sister is 9 mounts old!
Can you believe it 9 mounts old! She is so big and clever and she can crawl and go up the stairs! My little sister Frances means the world to me! Shes amazing! Babe we can rule the world!

Days till school:3!

Phoebe xxxx

Better but help me!

Right well for one i made up with Holly and Michael, witch i'm really happy about because i normally fuck everything up and it stays fucked up! I went to pick up my little brother witch was ok, and then we had a takeaway again! We are such fat people!
Then i told my mam i want to change my religion, you see at the minuet in Roman Catholic and i dont believe in any of the teachings or that the pope is any closer to god than me. I have thought about this for quite some time and i have come to the conclusion i want to become Church of England instead. I have looked in to it allot and i feel that this is better for me! But when i told my mam she started kick off calling me ungrateful and saying i was not allowed to change my religion and if i did, she would not come to my baptism or any thing! But the thing is its my religion and its not like im just being silly and not wanting to go to the same church as everyone else for nothing, i really believe in this!
So help me! What would you do!

Days till school:4

Phoebe xxx

Shit!

Today was quite good until i went and fucked everything up again! With Holly and Micheal and Josh! Why am i such a silly child???

Days till school: 5!

Phoebe xxx

Oliver!

Right well today has been quite good! Went shopping in town, then went to St Johns. It was really good, but i did get in to trubble for being on my phone!
My mam was late to pick me up by an hour so i chased Oliver around and when i said i was dead and lay on the floor he came over to me and said "Dont worrier i know CPR i will safe you!" Bless him! Then i tickled him and Holly, Micheal and Josh just sat there laughing at us!

Days till school: 6! {SHITTING MYSELF!!}

Phoebe xxx

Starbucks!

Right well today i went shopping and got some lush new shoes! Then jo came to watch frankie and we went to starbucks. After that we went for a walk in the links in Whitley bay, it was fun!

Days till school:7!

Phoebe xxx

Lauren Meal!

Right well not i have to say a big well done to Lauren! Her group at the summer of a life time project, had a fundraiser today and it was grate! Well at least till Judith and Jonathan tuned up, twats! Then we went for a meal in Anwick, it 6was really nice. Today has been really good!
 Days till school: 8!!

Phoebe xx

Ups and Downs

Right well today has had its ups and downs. But so dose every day. I felt so over whelmed, but i'm ok now. Also i dyed my hair today i have green tips!

Days till school:9!

Phoebe xx

Better

Right im feeling slightly better today! Thanks Megan and Josh! You are amazing people! <3
Had a long talk to josh!
And Megan has talked to me and evin though im a bitch, she still talked to me!

Days till school: 10!

Phoebe xxx

Shit

Well today had been shit! And that is all i have to say!

Days till school: 11

Phoebe xx

Proud!

Well today i went for a nice long walk after josh phoned me up to see if i was ok. I think that is so sweet and for the fact he is the only one that has bothered asking me if i was ok. We talked for about quarter of an hour, then i felt a bit better. So thank you Josh!
When i went for a walk like i said, and it made me feel so much better. I still don't feel normal but i feel better than i did last night. I'm sick of people not being proud of me. I know this sounds like poor old me. But this is how i feel!
I'm just glad i have some people looking out for me like Holly, Michael, Josh and Megan! I feel so pleased that people are looking out for me and all i want to do is make them proud and that is what i'm going to do. This may sound odd but i want to make these people proud more than my own parents! I am going to do this i'm going to make them proud i'm going to make it! Get the grades i need and go to uni and become a social worker! So thank you Holly, Michael, Josh and Megan for helping me reline that i can do it!

Days till school: 12!

Phoebe xxxx

Pissed off!

Right so fucking pissed off!  I though family where meant to be there for you! But mine are not my youth leaders are more like a mam and dad to me than my own! So fucking pissed off! Just because your in a shit mood dose not mean you have to treat us like shit! All i want is some to say they love me and give me a hug! Your my dad you should be able to do that! Please!

Days till school:13!

Phoebe xx

Self image!

Went shopping to day. But that's not what im going to post about tonight. The thing im going to address is mental health, and it in teenagers. Cutting and self image. I have ok self image i dont love my self or hate my self. Im not unhappy or happy im some where in the middle and im ok with that, if im hear for the rest of my life in fine with that.
But there are some people that can not cope and find other ways like cutting. Some people that mean a hell of a lot to me. And i don't know what i would do with out them cut. And you know what i support the right to cut. This girl is like a sister to me and is always there for me and she cuts people say she is ugly the scars show week. But you know what she strong and beautiful! The scares show she had a hard time and has over come it!
Please think before you label!

Days till school: 14!
Thing love Phoebe xxxx <3 <3

Good luck GCES

Today we got our car fixed and went shopping. Had an alright day just really sleepy. Cant wait till Thursday because Lauren gets her GCES Results witch we all know will be A! Good luck!
Days till school: 15!

Phoebe xxxx

Sorry!!

Sorry!
I know i have been away for about 2 weeks but i just really need to get my head together and i went away with my st john group.
Going away was quite fun and the things we did where good. But i felt home sick and was a little ill but other than that it was good! And i fell out with some of the other girls and had to say sorry to Holly, Michael and the rest of the youth leaders. So year i have been doing quite a bit of stuff.
Days till school: 16

Phoebe xxx

Clean bathroom

So today i went to pick up my cosine abbie with Frankie, so my mam could clean the bathroom. I am sleeping at my nannas with abbie like i do every time abbie is over. Tomorrow i have to go to the doctors because in ill like always!

Days till school: 24!

Phoebe xx

Shopping PGL!

So today we went shopping and i got some new clothes to take to PGL! I cant wait because its only 6 days! But if im not with Megan im going to kick off! Because they take the piss. And i cant wait to go swimming tomorrow!

Days till school: 24

Phoebe xx

So today i had a lazy day and just sat round the house and watched tv. Nothing else really happend exsept Lauren came home today and said she had a fab time.

Days till school: 25!

Phoebe xxx

Compound of post x

Well this is a compile of my blog post over the past 5 days. So on Sunday we went out for a meal in Ripon where we met my grandparents and went for a meal. It was lovely and I had a burger and chips. Frankie was really loud at the Place; she kept dropping her chips and chucking her cookie! She is getting really naughty.

Then on Monday we went shopping in Settle in Yorkshire. Witch has the most amazing shop called “The house that jack built” It’s full of adorable gift, but it’s quite expensive and I got Frankie a mobile for Christmas. Also we are going to the pub tonight. But there was only me and my nanna and granddad I’m. I went back early because I felt ill, then I had an asthma attack and could not breath so my nanna had to come back from the pub early. After that I and granddad stayed up till 2am talking about world war 2 and about all the jobs he has had he has be a: Police man, Lorrie driver, Train driver, Oil rig worker, Fisher man and also can teach business at a GCES course.

Tuesday: Today we went to an abbie! It was lovely and sunny for once in England. And I sat and read my book and im all most done. Not much to write about, really quite boring day.

Today we went to Skipton and had a really nice meal. But I hurt my foot so could not walk round all day. I also got a Yankkey Candle witch smells amazing. I love it. Also I have helped my nanna clean up the cravan because we are going home tomorrow so normal post from then. 

Nothing to wright about to day sorry! 

Days till school: 34! 

Phoebe xxx 

Megan!

Megan if you are reading this, that means i have published it. You are amazing and special and a little sister to me and Chloe! So what if you dont get what you want! Please please please stay! Thing about Chloe she going through a hard time and she need you!  your like your big sister evin though im taller! Any Megan you spical and when you say thing like im going to kill my self as a joke, i cry because i know some of the time your not joking! And its not fair!!

Fun Pissed off

Sorry i did not post last night i was so sleepy and pissed off, after fmingo land!It was loads of fun untill Megan pissed me off so i walked away and lost my group. Then i found them agen and it was fine. Then when me and Megan where getting on the bus, She was told she wound not be getting promoted. This made her really up set and wanted to leave st johns. But that not going to happen! Then i was talking to Megan about what an woundful person she is and if she is reading it  you are really verry special!

Days till school: 31

Phoebe xx

Proud Letters

Well today i got my nose ring! Love it, although my mam dose not. Today Lauren came back and im so so so proud of her! Also i got my first mail from my penpal to day! Then we went shopping and i got some lovely paper so i can write back. Tomorrow i go to fimingo land with St Jonhs! I cant wait!

Days till school: 33

Phoebe xx

Megan and shopping

So today my mam had to go to her work in Morepeth, so me and Frankie looked round the shops. We got her the cutes dress and little name tile! Then i went to st johns and it was good until Megan pushed me over running from our leader because we where imitating him! He scares me! -.- 

Days till school: 34!! 

Phoebe xx

Shopping Nanna Lauren

Well today i went shopping for food to take to the caravan, because im staying with my nanna so i will not be posting a new blog for 5 days. Though i might daily them for a day. Today i got some stuf for my hair because its like straw because i dye it so much! Then we went to see my nanna. Lauren is having a fab time.

Days till school: 35 {lol i counted wrong!}

Phoebe xxx

Late! Ill x

Late!!! I know its now already the 1st of August! Sorry, but i have been ill all day and have only been the house to go to the doctors! Firstly i woke up with a really bad head and a runny nose, i just wanted to stay in bed all day. But i got up and went to the doctors and got some medication. Not really done much more.

Days till school: 36!

Phoebe xxx

Lauren Ill!!

Well do day i waved bey bey to my big sister how is going away with NCS, to high barrens for a week! This may seam like nothing to some people but its amazing for my sister because she has been bullied all her life and is scared of social meting and to go away with 30 strangers, that's a big thing! So well done Lauren! x
Also my friend Hannah was meant to be coming over today and sleeping tonight but as im ill still she could not! A have sneesed all day and my eyes have been watering and i can not breach i hate being ill

Days till school starts: 37!

Phoebe xx

Olympic football! St John Ambulance

Today i went to see the Olympic football at st James park! I got free tickets for being at st johns member. I did not think i would like the football that much but it was so much fun! I sat with Chloe, i though it would be crap but it was supper fun!

Days till school starts: 38!!
Phoebe xxxx

Ill Phone Shopping Smoking

Well today i work up with a pounding head and bad chest. Cry! When i finaly got you my mam made me eggy bread and then we went to pick up the weel from the garege. After that we went schopping and lauren got a new phone evin though my mam wanted the new one, just because laurens a baby and went in the huff! Then we went food shopping and ended up getting more school stuf.
Tonight im sleeping at my nannas with abbie. We where outside and she though she was cool smoking throung a straw! Ahaaaaa so much fun. Im going in the shower then to ben.

Days till school starts:39
Phoebe xxx

Beach Car and School Clothes

Today i have been to the beach with my family and my little brothers friend and the dog. It was lovely the sun was shining and the water was really blue! But then the car broke down and we had to get my granddad and nanna out to fix the car. We ended up straying at the beach for 3 hours. After the beach we went and got school uniform, i know it supper early and i still have 5 weeks off but last year we waited till the last minuet to get them and they had sold out so we had to wait it till the day before school started to get it!
So new i have my: School tops, school pans, school bag, tights and some pens. I still need a new school skirt and that it.
Im going to start a count down till school starts. So it 40 days till we go back to school including weekends.
Phoebe xx

Police and St Johns

Well to day was very eventful! First of all i was walking down the street pushing my little sister in the pram when i saw two men arguing. Then the older man about 40 odd dragged this teenage boy into the house. So i ran down to my nanna's house and got her to phone the police as i was very scared for the teen safety. The police came and asked me some questions and it turned out the men had been high and they had a bad turn. Then i went to St Johns where we played games and did drill.
Phoebe xx

Brothers friends and more shopping!

4th day of summer now and i really do lead a boring life! Guess what i have done to day??
That's right i have been shopping ageing! But this time i have actually spent my own money, not on me but on frankie. I got her the sweetest dress ever! It so cute! My brother has his friend staying to night and Lauren has got to our nannas to sleep! Very jealous as i have to stay her with 3 young boys! They are up a height. Not fun!
Love Phoebe xxx

Frankie's new dress! P.S. My brothers bed sheets not mine! 

Gym and shopping

Today i spent half the day at my nannas with my lovely cosine abbie after going for the gym because i want a flat tummy for going back to school with! At first i thought i would hate the gym but i really love it, working out to music is so fun. Then spent the other half off the day shopping and spending my mams money! I got a new pair of shorts. But i needed them because i'm going away with my St.John Ambulance group from the 17th of August till the 20th, so there will be no blog post for those 3 day's. Sorry!
Phoebe xx

Shopping

Today me and my mam and my little brother and sister went shopping to and i got new clothes i got a yellow dress and 3 tops! My mam got a pair of jeans and a top. Frankie got a new dress with matching hat, so cute! Big thanks you to my mam how has spent loads on us the past few days! Love you

Swimming

Well to day is the second day of summer. It really dose not feel like the summer holidays! 
Right well today me and my mam got a new swimwear and went swimming with my little sister little brother and big sister, Frankie got a rubber ring and we splashed in the pool. The take away tonight and a night in with the family! Love xxxx

First day ! Summer Project

Right well its the first day of summer and this is my summer project to post every day till school start on the 5th of September. Well today has been eventful got my nose pieced as my mam did not want me to get my septum done and also had a fab time at Newcastle Pride. So much fun! I was there to support my older sister Lauren and its the most fun i have had in ages. Every one was so loving and understanding.
Was your day ok??

Love Phoebe xxx

Baby girl me and you will rule the world i love you. Your amazing  <3

Can't do anything fucking right! I'm a horrible, i don't help. 


She how you feel when i don't help, when i am horrible. 


When i don't pick up the baby when she crying, when i will 


not hold her, when i will not bather her for you! See how you 


feel 

when i'm not tidying up or making sure the others are ready. 

Then you will release how much i help but then your help will 


be fucking gone because i'm a horrible ungrateful cow! RIGHT 


FINE

This is my little sister she is 10 weeks old! She is my life i love her so much she is amazing. She made me change my life for the better because the things i was doing was affecting the people around me. Her name is Frances Enola Mary Grace Doyle - Davies!! In this photo she was 8 weeks, she now has ginger/ blond hair and green eyes.

So there it is the reason i started to change my life for this amazing girl <3 <3

Smile you'r beautiful

Please girls smile you'r beautiful!

This can mean the world to some people or little to someone 

else, but to me it means hope! Hope that one day people will 

see there love and beauty that's inside them. This might be a 

long status but take the time to read it and let it sink in. 

SMILE YOU'R BEAUTIFUL! 

Please believe me when i say it, it's true. Why would i lie 

about something that could change someone life for ever! I 

my thought's every girl is the same just as pretty, amazing, 

beautiful as anyone else! 

You'r beautiful and i mean it! 

I LOVE YOU JUST REMEMBER THIS WHEN YOUR FELLING

 LOW I LOVE YOU!! ♥ ♥

Me Me Me

Hey all this is my blog in a 14 year old girl from England!
I'm in year 9 at school and picking my GCES. I'm going to take OCR health and social, History and information technology. I want to be a social worker, i love working with children and working to protect them!