Shit!

Today was quite good until i went and fucked everything up again! With Holly and Micheal and Josh! Why am i such a silly child???

Days till school: 5!

Phoebe xxx

Oliver!

Right well today has been quite good! Went shopping in town, then went to St Johns. It was really good, but i did get in to trubble for being on my phone!
My mam was late to pick me up by an hour so i chased Oliver around and when i said i was dead and lay on the floor he came over to me and said "Dont worrier i know CPR i will safe you!" Bless him! Then i tickled him and Holly, Micheal and Josh just sat there laughing at us!

Days till school: 6! {SHITTING MYSELF!!}

Phoebe xxx

Starbucks!

Right well today i went shopping and got some lush new shoes! Then jo came to watch frankie and we went to starbucks. After that we went for a walk in the links in Whitley bay, it was fun!

Days till school:7!

Phoebe xxx

Lauren Meal!

Right well not i have to say a big well done to Lauren! Her group at the summer of a life time project, had a fundraiser today and it was grate! Well at least till Judith and Jonathan tuned up, twats! Then we went for a meal in Anwick, it 6was really nice. Today has been really good!
 Days till school: 8!!

Phoebe xx

Ups and Downs

Right well today has had its ups and downs. But so dose every day. I felt so over whelmed, but i'm ok now. Also i dyed my hair today i have green tips!

Days till school:9!

Phoebe xx

Better

Right im feeling slightly better today! Thanks Megan and Josh! You are amazing people! <3
Had a long talk to josh!
And Megan has talked to me and evin though im a bitch, she still talked to me!

Days till school: 10!

Phoebe xxx

Shit

Well today had been shit! And that is all i have to say!

Days till school: 11

Phoebe xx

Proud!

Well today i went for a nice long walk after josh phoned me up to see if i was ok. I think that is so sweet and for the fact he is the only one that has bothered asking me if i was ok. We talked for about quarter of an hour, then i felt a bit better. So thank you Josh!
When i went for a walk like i said, and it made me feel so much better. I still don't feel normal but i feel better than i did last night. I'm sick of people not being proud of me. I know this sounds like poor old me. But this is how i feel!
I'm just glad i have some people looking out for me like Holly, Michael, Josh and Megan! I feel so pleased that people are looking out for me and all i want to do is make them proud and that is what i'm going to do. This may sound odd but i want to make these people proud more than my own parents! I am going to do this i'm going to make them proud i'm going to make it! Get the grades i need and go to uni and become a social worker! So thank you Holly, Michael, Josh and Megan for helping me reline that i can do it!

Days till school: 12!

Phoebe xxxx

Pissed off!

Right so fucking pissed off!  I though family where meant to be there for you! But mine are not my youth leaders are more like a mam and dad to me than my own! So fucking pissed off! Just because your in a shit mood dose not mean you have to treat us like shit! All i want is some to say they love me and give me a hug! Your my dad you should be able to do that! Please!

Days till school:13!

Phoebe xx

Self image!

Went shopping to day. But that's not what im going to post about tonight. The thing im going to address is mental health, and it in teenagers. Cutting and self image. I have ok self image i dont love my self or hate my self. Im not unhappy or happy im some where in the middle and im ok with that, if im hear for the rest of my life in fine with that.
But there are some people that can not cope and find other ways like cutting. Some people that mean a hell of a lot to me. And i don't know what i would do with out them cut. And you know what i support the right to cut. This girl is like a sister to me and is always there for me and she cuts people say she is ugly the scars show week. But you know what she strong and beautiful! The scares show she had a hard time and has over come it!
Please think before you label!

Days till school: 14!
Thing love Phoebe xxxx <3 <3

Good luck GCES

Today we got our car fixed and went shopping. Had an alright day just really sleepy. Cant wait till Thursday because Lauren gets her GCES Results witch we all know will be A! Good luck!
Days till school: 15!

Phoebe xxxx

Sorry!!

Sorry!
I know i have been away for about 2 weeks but i just really need to get my head together and i went away with my st john group.
Going away was quite fun and the things we did where good. But i felt home sick and was a little ill but other than that it was good! And i fell out with some of the other girls and had to say sorry to Holly, Michael and the rest of the youth leaders. So year i have been doing quite a bit of stuff.
Days till school: 16

Phoebe xxx

Clean bathroom

So today i went to pick up my cosine abbie with Frankie, so my mam could clean the bathroom. I am sleeping at my nannas with abbie like i do every time abbie is over. Tomorrow i have to go to the doctors because in ill like always!

Days till school: 24!

Phoebe xx

Shopping PGL!

So today we went shopping and i got some new clothes to take to PGL! I cant wait because its only 6 days! But if im not with Megan im going to kick off! Because they take the piss. And i cant wait to go swimming tomorrow!

Days till school: 24

Phoebe xx

So today i had a lazy day and just sat round the house and watched tv. Nothing else really happend exsept Lauren came home today and said she had a fab time.

Days till school: 25!

Phoebe xxx

Compound of post x

Well this is a compile of my blog post over the past 5 days. So on Sunday we went out for a meal in Ripon where we met my grandparents and went for a meal. It was lovely and I had a burger and chips. Frankie was really loud at the Place; she kept dropping her chips and chucking her cookie! She is getting really naughty.

Then on Monday we went shopping in Settle in Yorkshire. Witch has the most amazing shop called “The house that jack built” It’s full of adorable gift, but it’s quite expensive and I got Frankie a mobile for Christmas. Also we are going to the pub tonight. But there was only me and my nanna and granddad I’m. I went back early because I felt ill, then I had an asthma attack and could not breath so my nanna had to come back from the pub early. After that I and granddad stayed up till 2am talking about world war 2 and about all the jobs he has had he has be a: Police man, Lorrie driver, Train driver, Oil rig worker, Fisher man and also can teach business at a GCES course.

Tuesday: Today we went to an abbie! It was lovely and sunny for once in England. And I sat and read my book and im all most done. Not much to write about, really quite boring day.

Today we went to Skipton and had a really nice meal. But I hurt my foot so could not walk round all day. I also got a Yankkey Candle witch smells amazing. I love it. Also I have helped my nanna clean up the cravan because we are going home tomorrow so normal post from then. 

Nothing to wright about to day sorry! 

Days till school: 34! 

Phoebe xxx 

Megan!

Megan if you are reading this, that means i have published it. You are amazing and special and a little sister to me and Chloe! So what if you dont get what you want! Please please please stay! Thing about Chloe she going through a hard time and she need you!  your like your big sister evin though im taller! Any Megan you spical and when you say thing like im going to kill my self as a joke, i cry because i know some of the time your not joking! And its not fair!!

Fun Pissed off

Sorry i did not post last night i was so sleepy and pissed off, after fmingo land!It was loads of fun untill Megan pissed me off so i walked away and lost my group. Then i found them agen and it was fine. Then when me and Megan where getting on the bus, She was told she wound not be getting promoted. This made her really up set and wanted to leave st johns. But that not going to happen! Then i was talking to Megan about what an woundful person she is and if she is reading it  you are really verry special!

Days till school: 31

Phoebe xx

Proud Letters

Well today i got my nose ring! Love it, although my mam dose not. Today Lauren came back and im so so so proud of her! Also i got my first mail from my penpal to day! Then we went shopping and i got some lovely paper so i can write back. Tomorrow i go to fimingo land with St Jonhs! I cant wait!

Days till school: 33

Phoebe xx

Megan and shopping

So today my mam had to go to her work in Morepeth, so me and Frankie looked round the shops. We got her the cutes dress and little name tile! Then i went to st johns and it was good until Megan pushed me over running from our leader because we where imitating him! He scares me! -.- 

Days till school: 34!! 

Phoebe xx

Shopping Nanna Lauren

Well today i went shopping for food to take to the caravan, because im staying with my nanna so i will not be posting a new blog for 5 days. Though i might daily them for a day. Today i got some stuf for my hair because its like straw because i dye it so much! Then we went to see my nanna. Lauren is having a fab time.

Days till school: 35 {lol i counted wrong!}

Phoebe xxx